i need to study for writcom. test at 9am tmr. just reached home not too long ago.
packed schedules are draining me. eg:
8-9am red camp registration
9am-2pm lessons (incl a quiz)
2-3pm red camp duty
3pm leave for match
7+pm come back from match
8pm red camp duty
till the end of the day. it ended at like, 11pm today. sian.
then came home. and i need to study.
today played our last ivp match against nyp. sucked like crap. i almost scored the first try. then the ref said it was a dropball. i almost cried on the spot, but i rmbr coach said we cannot break down in the middle of the game. so overall we played a damn shitty game. and i finally cried after the match, and i couldn't stop crying. cos i did not drop the ball. freakin hell. but also if i had dumped properly, the ref wouldn't have seen it as a dropball. everyone was just saying nice attempt, even if you scored it we still would've lost.
thing is, i was already intending to quit. so this would've been my last match. and i wanted it to end on a nice note. that's why i was bawling my eyes out.
then much later coach talked to us. and said she wanted all of us to stay and not give up. SIAN. cried a little again. argh.
thank god jam&hop kinda cheered me up and took my mind off things for a while. went super high with all the ambs.
then i come home, and now i don't have the mood to study. sigh.
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