i was so not myself today.
but, i haven't been myself for quite some time. since poly started.
lecture only started at 4 today, till 6. one lecture on marketing. i was quiet and attentive. how often do you get that?
then after lecture i just walked out, alone. walked out of school, alone on the path. and decided to take the longer route home. i'm still not used to reaching home so early.
on the long long bus ride, i realized that family is something that you should treasure, cos they're there for you no matter what. of course, i'm not as close to my family such that i tell them everything, but in the situation that i'm in now, they seem to be the only friends i have left. i know i always say i hate my mum and dad and brother and etc, but deep down when everyone turns their backs on me i still have them. even though sometimes they turn their backs on me too. i don't know why, i just felt touched, although i've been quarreling with my mum the past few days. so i just wanna say that i'm thankful for my mum, who does all the housework and cooks and cleans and etc, for helping whenever, wherever. for my dad who always preaches to me about God, and for trying to change to be a better person. my brother for just being so cute and adorable. i'm glad i have someone to pamper.
so i dropped by ritz apple strudel and bought a peach strudel home. my family used to eat apple strudel, so i decided to buy that for dessert tonight.
well ritz's standard dropped. =.=
someone i got to know recently added me on msn, then asked for my number. then he said he's gonna put my name as emogirl in his phonebook. i retaliated and said i'm not emo, he says my nickname is always emo.
i guess i AM emo. it's always been this inner thing that people never see in secondary school.
the transition from secondary school to poly, the changes and all that, has brought about this huge change in me. i told this to someone, and was asked if the change is good or bad. to me, it's pretty bad. ):
i hate poly. i really cannot wait to graduate and get outta there.
PvP this saturday, and as much emotional hurt bball has brought me during secondary school years, and as much as i don't really like most people there, i'm just glad i can go back to sc and see sc people. because i'm sick of looking at poly people all day.
nothing's fine, and nothing will ever be.
it's time to pray.