tiring myself out, just to get my mind off you.
but every second i'm not doing smth, i immediately think of you.
natural reaction.
at night i just break down.
waking up every hour, specifically 330am, 430am, 530am. it's no joke i'm fucking tired. no 230am cos that's when i finally fall asleep, no 630am cos i'm already awake.
this sucks.
i miss you so much.
it's unfair. i'm happy that you're happy, but isn't it unfair that i'm here suffering wanting to die while you're enjoying your new life.
fuck.
i'd do anything.
on a different note, managed to sam's style of babyfreeze today. haha. yes i've been doing sanny's style do until got that huge ugly bruise on my shoulder which my mum accidentally whacked last night. but sam's style's hurting my knee. haha. crap la. just do it. still can't balance that well though. sighh. practise practise!! lol.